Im happy but there is a heavy feeling of sadness in my heart that I just can't remove. Why am I like this?

You are the masterpiece you came here to discover.

I was tired of trying and failing.

This interpretation lead me on a path of self improvement, to fix what I considered to be “wrong” with myself.

9 fruits that are known to flush out toxins from liver and kidneys when consumed daily - Times of India

It’s still here.

I had run out of hope.

But unlike before, there is no more resistance to the sadness.

If you get a chance to have sex with either Kajal Agarwal or Samantha, who would you choose and why?

What I am trying to say is that when you stop trying to change yourself into something you are not, you give yourself the gift of discovering yourself as you already are.

I was tired of fighting.

You are like me, then.

Bitcoin bears bet against BTC’s rally, but a short squeeze could follow IF… - AMBCrypto

For much of my adult life, I interpreted this sadness as something being wrong - with either myself or my life in general.

Needless to say, my failed attempts to fix my sadness simply brought me more pain and suffering.

Without resistance, sadness has a sense of beauty and depth I cannot find otherwise in life.

14,000-year-old mummified 'puppies' weren't dogs at all, new research shows - KSL News

It wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I finally fell out of that ferris wheel of trying and failing to fix myself.

Now, this may sound like a story of failure and giving up, but it’s actually a story of liberation.

When I stopped trying to force myself to be something I am not, I gave myself the freedom of being who I am.

Procter & Gamble to cut 7,000 jobs as part of broader restructuring - CNBC

The sadness was still there.

So if you are sad - like me - then be sad.

But no matter what I read or practiced, I could never make the sadness budge for longer than a few fleeting moments - and even then, it was likely due to me being distracted from the sensation of sadness rather than anything actually shifting.

What are the most important skills a fine artist should develop in today's art world?

What most people don’t know unless they’ve looked more closely is that there is also an element of deep, profound sadness that has always been with me since as long as I can remember.

Most people that know me would probably describe me as a social, happy, and somewhat quirky person with a twisted sense of humor.

And the sadness?

Why is fitness important?

It’s here now, writing to you.

In the absence of a should, I was free to be as I am.

It’s difficult to put into words exactly what caused what, but to the best of my ability to describe it, I felt as if my will to keep fighting was beaten right out of me.

Why do you like Justin Trudeau when he's hated in Canada?

It’s impossible to overstate the freedom and peace I discovered, and I realized the only one who had been keeping those from me was… me and my imagined standards and expectations for how I had imagined I should be.

It’s the most beautiful and liberating thing in the world.

So I finally threw my hands up and said something to the tune of “fuck it, since I can't seem to change, I’ll just be whatever I am then.”

See ‘Star Trek: Strange New Worlds’ Season 3 Episode Titles And New Posters - TrekMovie.com

Be who you already are.

Your job is not to be the manager of your life, but the one who discovers yourself fully.